Forty-five degrees.

it is a chilly willy day here, but it is going so much better than my yesterday. i checked out five lovely books from the library, and just enjoyed some killer hot chocolate. :) now that ive updated all my bloggies, im gonna make some tea, curl up under my blanket, and get started on my first book!

{happy tuesday lovelies}

untitled one.

i woke up this morning super happy. but.... now, that happieness is gone, and im feeling really lonely. or, maybe not lonely, just left out. the world keeps spinning without tess in it. and i feel like im missing out. i also miss my normal. and i miss annemarie. and i miss hanging out with my friends, and staying up late...

nineteen days. yes im counting. {ugh a bug just got stuck under my right arrow key, and i totally just killed it and it wont come out.} and my life will continue as normal, and i will happily enjoy the rest of my summer.

solitary jitters.

so, im in montana with the family for the rest of the month, and although im glad to be away, and glad to be here, im finding it hard to be a social butterfly. instead, i keep dazing off into my own world, having my own little conversation, or pondering things in my head. none of these things are bad necessarily, and ive been very inspired. i really just want to get creative, but all i have with me is my watercolors. i want to paint. i want to sew. i want to make something big! so... we shall have to get on that.

i also want to go to the library. montana is my reading time for the year, and i already have my list written up. maybe i can go there tomorrow! :)

on another note, the coffee cups here are much too small. i may have to buy myself a big one.

use your imagination for once.

death cab speaks better than i.

A Movie Script Ending by Death Cab For Cutie from Richard Le on Vimeo.

love is watching someone die.

Death Cab for Cutie - What Sarah Said from tann on Vimeo.

il maime--he loves me
un peu--a little
beaucoup!--so much!
passionement--passionatlely
a la folie--to insanity
il maime pas du tout- he loves me not

im ready to run for the summer sky....

. summer summer summer summer.

it's a new trend!

dont even worry about it.

the atlantic was born today, and i'll tell you how.

the clouds above opened up and let it out.

i don't know who i can trust anymore. honestly.....does anyone tell the truth anymore?

lessons from gatsby.

you can't have a happy ending to a story based on lies.

this is my sundown.

I need you to show me the way from crazy.
I wanna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
Good goodbye lovely time.
Good goodbye tin sunshine.
Good goodbye I'll be fine.
Good goodbye, good goodnight.

....................

all the time.

this hopeful fantasy.

i honestly believe, and almost have accepted the fact that my lover is not in richmond. i dont even think he is in virginia. i mean, i may be wrong. but... i just have this fantasy that he is somewhere far away from me, and that someday, he will leave his hometown, and i will leave mine, and somehow, somewhere, in some huge city, the forces of love will pull us together. and once we find each other, noone will ever be able to tear us apart.

but maybe im only dreaming...

and it's your presense that i miss...

youre beautiful.youre wonderful.youre glorious.you are.

so marvelous.so majestic.so powerful.you are.

you blow me away

you blow me away

you blow me away

you blow me away

took me a while.

so, i just wrote a birthday letter to my dad, and... it took me a really long time, because, for some reason, it was really hard. it was really, emotional for me. i dont know why.

i cant even look over it to revise it, so hopefully it makes sense.

<3

eff imm ell

trying to be happy is just not easy for me this week. im just very up and down. i really need to escape. hang out with some boys...haha, i dont know, that just seems to help, being with people and all. i wanna go downtown.

blah blah blah blah bleh.

not motivated and grumpy.

i want my way.

i want to smile.

i want to be happy.

but i just wont be today.

so. dont expect much from me.

i might just let you down.

sorry.

wanna make me smile? :)

tell me a story!

or ask me a question! here

or give me an assignment of something to do!

please! im so boredd....

so if you're lonely, you know im here, waiting for you

i feel like im waiting for something. im so not motivated to do anything. i feel stuck. and tired. all i want to do is climb under my covers, im so tired right now. you see, this is what the rain does to me. it makes me lazy... my life is getting boring and monotinous again.... what happened to the adventures? i hope they come back soon. i need my heart to race again. but. for now, i guess ill just keep sipping my tea. : )

tell me a story!

i found this website today, and i loved listening to these amazing people tell little life stories. here is one of my favorites:


Paul Wilson and his daughter Marty


and while you're there, look around and listen to others too! :)
happy monday!