stuck in my head...

thanks {notebookdoodles}

an observation.

so, as i sat around today slaving away on a journal spread, a couple of puzzle pieces fit together in my head, and i realized something about myself... i like to finish things. i cant stand walking away from something that isnt complete and as close to perfect as possible. i think this is why i like to do the type of art that i do- quick, easy, and able to be finished in one sitting. and, yes, one sitting could be four or five hours or fifteen minutes, but. still, it is doable in a day.

it is SO hard for me to stop when im crafting or painting, because, i want it to be done. i dont want to have to come back and finish something. in other words, i just don't like to leave loose ends...

living...

i believe in believing. and trusting that things will all work out in the end. i am optimistic in everything . everything. i get my hopes up. i dream. i wish. i jump. i take chances. i go for it....

yes, sometimes things dont work out as planned, but they always work out. and, although not everything is a happy ending, it seems to me that there are always more good things than bad...

so. believe. breathe.

dictionary

so, i havent posted here for a while, and i apologise... but, life has been spinning quickly lately.

but, i have a few definitions:

totes.- short for totally, usually followed by an exclamation point. {!}

ad.ven.ture.ate.ing - the act of seeking and going on an adventure.

spon.tin.e.i.ty- acting without knowing the outcome, with optimistic intentions.

art. school- a place that one goes to learn how to become a better artist; not for the weak and unpassionate; not for hobby artists.

{snow patrol}

"if i lay here ... if i just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world..." honestly this is one of my favorite songs, and i think its because i love this kind of thing... i like using my imagination, i like pondering things, i like slowing down, i like listening, i like dreaming, i like escaping reality...

note: i am having way too much fun with fonts this week...sorry. :)

a nighttime wish...

do you believe in wishing on a star? i do. the way i see it, why not? shooting stars make me happy, and what makes me happier is when someone else sees the same one from a different place! to think, that the stars i see are the same as my friend across town, or a little girl waiting at her window in france, or a farmer sitting on his roof in asia...

i have another little wish...

i wish that i will find adventure soon. daring, risktaking, fun, rediculous, unpredictable, spontanious, inspiring, and amazing adventure...

i dont know what lies ahead, or what the answer to my wish will be, but i guess that's just part of the adventure, huh? :)

goodnight.

so true...

thanks: http://notebookdoodles.blogspot.com/

just putting it out there.

i wrote a few letters....

dear anonymous #1,
i dont know what to do, because, well. i dont know what to do. i love you though, and im going to try to figure things out. and i am sorry you misunderstood me, and i am sorry i misunderstood you. but...some things cant be undone. i am a fail friend, but i love you, and miss you.

dear anonymous #2,
you are beautiful and strong, and i look up to you so much, and i feel like i let you down. and i am sorry that i dont always listen to you, just know that i am listening but i cant help myself sometimes... will you be there for me if i fall flat on my face?

dear anonymous #3,
its hard with you gone. i wish you were here when i needed you. like the night i broke up with him, you werent here, and i had to cry on my own shoulder. i felt really alone, and i missed you, and that just made me cry harder. i understand what you are doing, and i love you for it. but, i love you so much and i never really realized how good it was having you around... when can you be back for good?

dear anonymous #4,
i dont know what you want from me, but i wish you could make up your mind and fill me in, because i dont like playing in the middle ground. and i also like to know what im getting myself into. although, im kinda already in. i took the jump a while ago. anyway. please, for my sanity, make a desicion and commit to it. then i can just relax, and be your buddy. which is really all i can ask for. and all i want right now.

dear anonymous #5,
i sure do hope you are going through the same lovelies as i am right now, because im sure they will make for good stories someday.... i dont know where you are or what your doing, but... do you think about me like i think about you? are you looking for me? because, when i feel really alone, i think about you, and i think that maybe you are out there living your life and feeling alone too. and somehow, knowing we are both alone makes me feel less lonely. i love you already bud...

a good place to be.

which should you follow, your heart or your mind?

i feel like it depends on the person. for the pragmatic realist, their mind probably has a better idea of what should happen. but for the idealistic dreamer, {me} , i cant help but follow my heart. i feel like she has a pretty good idea of whats going on, and thus, i follow her blindly. even if it is against the norm or kinda out there... right now, though. i feel like my heart and my mind are saying the same thing. and that is a good place to be in. and, i am not going to lie, my heart and my head haven't agreed in a while, so this is nice. :)

so pretty.

my friend haley got me to help her with a photo project today. we did a couple of different setups. and for one of them, she drew this adorable design all over my back...and i wanted to take a picture of it before i had to wash it off... i loved it!! haha.... maybe later ill post the ones she took. :) happy saturday!

in my life...

so, i have a list of things that i want to do in my lifetime. not in the next month or year, no. then the list would be finished too quickly. and its good to spread the little joys around, or else they arent as joyous. {i dont think that makes much sense}

1. i want to go on a road trip in an old vw bug

2. i want to go to richmond hill {u.k.}


3. i want to dry my clothes on a clothesline


4.i want to have an amazing art studio


5. i want a pair of red stillettos


6. i want to stargaze from alaska


7. i want to drink a cup of tea on spiral stairs


....i may add to this... :)
pics: http://www.flickr.com/photos/carlinetimages/ - http://www.flickr.com/photos/markusram/2619678450/ -
http://www.pamgolding.co.za/propertydetails/gallery.aspx?propertyid=171945-
http://www.celestronimages.com/details.php?image_id=3417&mode=search&sessionid=8jmot4pnhk7bsnafrlr4231q57 - http://www.look4design.co.uk/l4design/pages/gallery.asp?company_id=529 - http://www.flickr.com/photos/fortphoto/3553557451/

good morning!

i am so happy right now, so content. i feel stressfree and just perfect. to-do lists completely completed. and, i think my life is slowing down for a little while. which is what i need. :) of course, my room is a mess and i really should get on that... haha. but that can wait. right now, i just wanna relax and breathe....

anxious optimism

so, i havent posted anything recently...sorry. but im here now. and i have such a content feeling today. which is crazy because ive had such a hectic week. but i feel like i just completed the longest to do list ever. so that is something to be happy about. and, i feel like this year is going to be just amazing for me, and for everything. which is great. and, all of my friends seem to share the optimism. so, in honor of friends....some memories!

by the way... these are from 08/09...love you buddies

sweet home.

so, recently, i have become so much more in tune to home furnishings, and architecture, and also thinking about places i would and would not like to live. and i have come to a couple of conclusions... first of all. i really don't care where i live, but i need somewhere that:
a. has plenty of fun things to do around it
b. has nice people, who love life
c. has seasons, because i like them
d. is absolutely inspiring and beautiful
e. likes local. {not walmart infested}

and then, when it comes to my house, i dont want a cookie cutter mowed green lawn. no. no. no. i want a little cottage. well, a medium cottage. with...
a. oddly shaped windows in odd places
b. a few squeeky spots in the floorboards
c. an adorable but functional kitchen, with a big window
d. a special little nook where i can hide and read a book and drink a cup of tea
e. storage space
f. a really cute door
g. pretty colors
h. art everywhere, and somewhere to store it
i. a lot of character
j. a closet under the staircase
i. a built in floor to ceiling bookcase {cute}

i may add to this.... :)

pics: http://www.flickr.com/photos/35885784@N08/ http://www.flickr.com/photos/from_linda_yvonne/ http://www.flickr.com/photos/saltygal/

im taking a chance and hoping...

this is a journal spread i did a couple days ago... its probably the truest and purest product that my soul has ever produced on paper...as far as the emotional and written content is concerned... and i just needed to let it go free.

i am having a good day today.
:)

just one toothbrush...

the other morning, as i stood brushing my teeth in front of my bathroom sink, i looked behind me in the mirror. my mind wandered...i thought about how amazing its going to be when i can look up and see someone else standing there in the vacant space behind me...he grabs his toothbrush out of the cup, squeezes a line of colgate total over the bristles, and cleans his pearly whites. we attempt to have a conversation in between spits and gargles, and it works because we know what the other is saying anyway. i finish, and place my brush in its rightful place on the counter, and soon another sits right beside it... i want to be standing in front of a different mirror in a different bathroom with my best friend brushing his teeth beside me...

...but for now there's just one toothbrush.



"You're a pink toothbrush, I'm a blue toothbrush
Have we met somewhere before?
You're a pink toothbrush and I think toothbrush
That we met by the bathroom door.

Glad to meet toothbrush, such a sweet toothbrush
How you thrill me through and through
Dont be hard toothbrush on a soft toothbrush
'Cause I cant help loving you.

Every time I hear you whistle...... it makes my nylon bristle.......

You're a pink toothbrush, I'm a blue toothbrush
Won't you marry me in haste?
I'll be true toothbrush, just to you toothbrush
When we both use the same toothpaste. "
-max bygraves

pic: http://www.flickr.com/photos/throughcateyedframes/