old times.

every time i look back at old seek pics, i get so sentimental. "back in the days"... back when i was chubby, and didnt wear makeup, and didnt really know who i was or what i was doing.... but i was happy regardless.... yeah, those days. those days were good. haha. sometimes i wish i could go back... but then i remember that everything changes. and we cant let ourselves get down about it. we need to embrace change. and let memories be memories. "it was what it was when it was" as my art teacher reminded me the other day.

empty gas tank.

and, it never occurred to me that target would be closed on easter.

one day.

one day i will have a lover of my own.

a lover i can trust and believe in.

a lover i can run home to.

a lover i can throw my arms around.

a lover i can share the rest of my life with.

one day i will have a family of my own.

a family i can gather together on easter.

a family i can hide easter baskets for.

a family i can start traditions with.

a family i can love with every sliver of my little heart.

amen.

Adele Hometown Glory from 6l91n0 on Vimeo.

nothing better.

things arent getting any better for me.

i really wish i could talk to someone about everything that is going on inside of my head right now.

but the person i want to talk to seems disinterested and "platonic" today.

i miss things i had.

im bummed.

its been a long day.

my family is moving to florida. and im terrified. no, im not moving, im going to vcu. but the rest of them are moving. we're selling the house... ill be alone up here. it makes me sad.

thats whats been bothering me today.... sucky beginning to spring break, and kinda a waste ofsuch a beautiful day. but on the bright side, anastasia was able to have an incredible birthday, and that makes me smile.

platonic?

i hate that word. well, yeah, it has its place....but i dont like it right now.