it's a new trend!

dont even worry about it.

the atlantic was born today, and i'll tell you how.

the clouds above opened up and let it out.

i don't know who i can trust anymore. honestly.....does anyone tell the truth anymore?

lessons from gatsby.

you can't have a happy ending to a story based on lies.

this is my sundown.

I need you to show me the way from crazy.
I wanna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
Good goodbye lovely time.
Good goodbye tin sunshine.
Good goodbye I'll be fine.
Good goodbye, good goodnight.

....................

all the time.

this hopeful fantasy.

i honestly believe, and almost have accepted the fact that my lover is not in richmond. i dont even think he is in virginia. i mean, i may be wrong. but... i just have this fantasy that he is somewhere far away from me, and that someday, he will leave his hometown, and i will leave mine, and somehow, somewhere, in some huge city, the forces of love will pull us together. and once we find each other, noone will ever be able to tear us apart.

but maybe im only dreaming...

and it's your presense that i miss...

youre beautiful.youre wonderful.youre glorious.you are.

so marvelous.so majestic.so powerful.you are.

you blow me away

you blow me away

you blow me away

you blow me away

took me a while.

so, i just wrote a birthday letter to my dad, and... it took me a really long time, because, for some reason, it was really hard. it was really, emotional for me. i dont know why.

i cant even look over it to revise it, so hopefully it makes sense.

<3

eff imm ell

trying to be happy is just not easy for me this week. im just very up and down. i really need to escape. hang out with some boys...haha, i dont know, that just seems to help, being with people and all. i wanna go downtown.

blah blah blah blah bleh.

not motivated and grumpy.

i want my way.

i want to smile.

i want to be happy.

but i just wont be today.

so. dont expect much from me.

i might just let you down.

sorry.

wanna make me smile? :)

tell me a story!

or ask me a question! here

or give me an assignment of something to do!

please! im so boredd....

so if you're lonely, you know im here, waiting for you

i feel like im waiting for something. im so not motivated to do anything. i feel stuck. and tired. all i want to do is climb under my covers, im so tired right now. you see, this is what the rain does to me. it makes me lazy... my life is getting boring and monotinous again.... what happened to the adventures? i hope they come back soon. i need my heart to race again. but. for now, i guess ill just keep sipping my tea. : )

tell me a story!

i found this website today, and i loved listening to these amazing people tell little life stories. here is one of my favorites:


Paul Wilson and his daughter Marty


and while you're there, look around and listen to others too! :)
happy monday!

karmic synergy still applies.

{dont stress dont stress dont stress}

a moment a love a dream...

and everything will be fine.

three strikes, im out.

im gonna get it right this time. thats my one forever promise for tonight.

there'd be no distance that could hold us back...

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back
There'd be no distance that could hold us back

So this is the new year
So this is the new year
So this is the new year
So this is the new year

i'd rather be with........

i feel really lonely a lot of the times. i can be in a room or even a house full of people but want nothing else but to hide somewhere, or run away.

i dont know if i have ever been hanging out with a girl and not felt lonely. being with girls just makes me talk and think about boys. and boys make me feel less lonely.

and some boys make me feel totally un-lonely. and when i say boys i dont even mean that kind of boy.

some of my best friends are guys. and with them, i feel safe, like i can tell them anything and they will listen, and care.

i have always wanted a big brother, and that is what these boys are to me.

and someday, ill have a boy. that kind of a boy. and he will come in, and sit at the end of my bed, and tell me his stories, and ill tell him mine. i love stories.

goodnight.

just leave it to karmic synergy.

Sweet disposition Never too soon Oh, reckless abandon Like no one’s watching you A moment A love A dream Aloud A kiss A cry Our rights Our wrongs A moment a love A dream Aloud A moment a love A dream Aloud So stay there ‘Cause I’ll be coming over And while our blood’s still young It’s so young, it runs And won’t stop til it’s over Won’t stop to surrender Songs of desperation I played them for you A moment A love A dream Aloud A kiss A cry Our rights Our wrongs A moment a love A dream Aloud A moment a love A dream Aloud……

i choose you. im supposed to. for now anyway.

unknown but amazing.

this is really really good cereal. and thats about all i know. i just found the bag in our pantry...so i have no idea what kind of cereal it is... haha. but its SOOO good!

transatlanticism, be in my heart tonight.

And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around

If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's a to z

This fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay [x3]

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years

you look so defeated lying there.

woke up. first heard words this morning:

and i tried not to worry, but you've got me terrified.

-death cab for cutie.twin sized bed-

my state of mind exactly.

but, even though im scared, im happy. really happy. and hopeful.

i have lost myself, and i think its about time i go back to the start, back to me.

the answer is simple, really.

lauren said something today...and it made me really sad.

"see, i want someone like that, someone who is just really happy"

and i realized that i want the same thing.

every girl does.

its so simple, really....but then, its not.

honestly, i dont want a "boyfriend".

i want a best friend. a boy best friend.

simple. plain. easy. fun.

perfect.

on a sunday, on a sunday.

church. then annemarie and i split off and went downtown. it has kinda become my escape, where i feel free and okay. we went to urbanfarmhouse, and then picked up some goodies for lauren and then brought them to her :) it was so nice to be able to just chill you know?

i lovee this pretty girl.

oh hello saturday.

woke up after prom and scurried over to hell {a.k.a. SAT's}.... i am NOT doing that again.

and after my brain was done, i decided i needed to just stay low key the rest of the day. so, driving home, i thought about what was on my to do list, and i remembered that i had promised a friend of mine some cupcakes.....so, i spent the afternoon baking, and then i delivered them! but a few fell over in the car :/ oh well...

i am getting so good at driving downtown...i got there without gps or mapquest! woot!

and i parallel parked all by myself!

and, i got to see davids awesome house, which he has been working crazy hard on for months, so. fun night.

then we met up with friends and hung out,
and yeah. i had a good yesterday.

p.s. i didnt abandon inspirationwall, i just want to save my 200th post for the giveaway, which i havent gotten together yet. haha :)

i gotta feelin' :)

ah! such a fun night! promised pics:

target run! ;)