this hopeful fantasy.

i honestly believe, and almost have accepted the fact that my lover is not in richmond. i dont even think he is in virginia. i mean, i may be wrong. but... i just have this fantasy that he is somewhere far away from me, and that someday, he will leave his hometown, and i will leave mine, and somehow, somewhere, in some huge city, the forces of love will pull us together. and once we find each other, noone will ever be able to tear us apart.

but maybe im only dreaming...