i know this seems ridiculous.

but... i miss my scale.

december 15.

argh. i look like a hot mess. not gonna prove it to you, but take my word for it. ive been taking picutures of my porfolio stuff all morning, and......i still am short of some stuff. so yeah, and i forgot to pick jenna up from school, so she called me and was like "hey, where are you?" and so then i went and got her. ummm.... i have to go buy my costume for tonight in like... and hour, and i have a ton of cleaning up to do and i have to get a shower. this blog is kinda pointless, but i figured, why not... haha :) alright... byeee.

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Well I wrote your name and burned it to see the color of the flame and it burned out the whole spectrum as if you were everything.

senior pics.

patrick wallace and i went to belle isle once again {this time for my senior pictures}. i loved having him shoot me, because he keeps me laughing, which keeps my natural smile. haha. which is one major reason why i wanted him to take my pictures. i have only seen three sofar, but i cannot wait to see the others!

so many wishes.

i wish for so many things....
.....magical things, beautiful things, amazing things.

set me free.

and send me to cali.

october moon

driving home from work tonight, i looked looked up in front of me, and was startled by the moon. she was burnt orange like a pumpkin, and huge..... and only a sliver of her could be seen. oh, how i love october moons :) and manchester orchestra. i need to make an october mix soon...

*side note. someone called me during work today, randomly, and, i couldnt/didnt want to answer. but then, later i texted them to check what they needed... "oh, im sorry, i butt-dialed"...and then they continued to text me about things i really dont care about anymore, so i just, didnt answer... butt-dialed my a**. i know that they called me on purpose.... it was too random for it to be a butt dial. and if it was. then thats one talented butt. i wish people would just... do something, or not do something. you cant just go halfway and turn around. at least admit to what you were trying to do. yes?

and i run to you.

stories and sticky pages.

i had a wonderful weekend full of surprises this weekend. including some serious quality time with my beautiful, annemarie, crossroads, hot chocolate, stawberry ice cream, stargazing and cell phone soccer, and sleeping under layers of blankets. i saw FIVE shooting stars last night! best.night.ever. :) love you babycakes.

all is love.

listening to the where the wild things are soundtrack.

drinking sugary coffee.

and about to work on my talk/discussion for bible study.

and then, a trip to the library, my new favorite place.

its a good day.

carla bruni

instrumentals.

the rest of my afternoon will be spent.... drinking tea, reading "the things they carried", listening to yann tiersen and dario marianelli, finishing homework...and trying to keep my mind focused. :)

invisible children tonight. im so excited for it.

this is why im happy.

annemarie brought me a pumpkin! a pretty little baby pumpkin! and i bought a new coffee mug from anthro! adding to my collection.... :) and i bought two shirts for a grand total of.... $10.39! love love love sales.

some kind of magic happens late at night.

i love "brand new day"by joshua radin.

ive been so busy lately.

im excited about the drawing class ill be taking at vcu starting next week.

im doing relatively okay in school.

im still figuring out the schools i want to apply to for fall 2011.

all i can think about is summer. it ended much too soon, and was the best one yet.

im having a really hard time deciding on colleges, mainly because, i cannot imagine leaving a few people. yes...most people im okay with leaving, but a few...i just cant. and its so hard to just try to push those thoughts out of my head, so that i can put myself and what i want first.

and then i start thinking....maybe its not such a terrible thing that i cant leave them....

late night. lots of thoughts.

g'night kids.

nicholasrobert.

How you live is always going to matter more than how long you do.

identity theft.

i feel like my identity is constantly being stolen. well, maybe not the whole thing, just bits and pieces here and there. yeah, maybe that sounds hypocritical. true, everyone is affected by their surroundings. true, its hard to be a completely unique human being.... but i am never afraid to like/dislike something, no matter if its the "hottest" thing, or the "lamest". i wish people were just more confident in themselves, and i wish that they were more anxious to discover their true identity instead of try and mold themselves into someone elses identity.

i do what i want to do, i like what i want to like, i wear what i want to wear, i say what i want to say... i am me. tess. and i want to stay that way.

"You see, Wendy, when the first baby laughed for the first time, its laugh broke into a thousand pieces, and they all went skipping about, and that was the beginning of fairies."

chapter 2

a new day.

well....let's see. i may make a list today, because i have many random thoughts... :)

*i found a website that reads peter pan aloud. i'm listening to a chapter {or two} a night. im in love.

*today i had a NAHS meeting, and i am very excited for some of the things that we are trying to plan.

*today is my first day at hollister. i have a 5-9 shift. updates later! im so nervous...

*i have to go work on my art project and other random to-do's now, but, ill check in again later.

have a wonderful thursday!

All children, except one, grow up.

"Of all delectable islands the Neverland is the snuggest and most compact, not large and sprawly, you know, with tedious distances between one adventure and another, but nicely crammed. When you play at it by day with the chairs and table-cloth, it is not in the least alarming, but in the two minutes before you go to sleep it becomes very real. That is why there are night-lights. "

-peter pan, chapter 1

so over it.

i am so over the middle of a night texts from colin and jesse regarding opposums and looking out windows and recieving mail.... third night in a row now. and i really just want to hit one of them. or both....