i am not tired at all.

even though it is definitely 1:24 in the morning right now. my headache has been gone for a little while now, and ive been sidetracked looking at awesome things on the internet...oh, blog world, how you keep me from sleeping... haha. but i love it. and im also loving these:

okay..time update---> 2:05

and...now that you have a rather good representation of what ive been distracting myself by tonight {tumblr blogs.weheartit.yay!everyday} i think i am going to have to say goodnight. i just may be tired now... mayyybe ;) night!

ugh, headaches.

i had a wonderful day, but right now... my head is aching terribly, and i just want to lay around in bed for, well.... twelve hours.

so, im reading this book right now, and im almost done. its not the happiest of selections, but i find it extremely intriguing. do i recommend it? yeah, but only if you can take it. it gets pretty rough in parts. not necessarily violence. but moreso, the state of mind taken by the characters. they basically leave their life to the trash. and its hard to read about.

lessons in independence and self-worth

“what you SHOULD most likely do is just live. live your life by furthering YOU. whether that’s in arts, or projects, or whatever - build yourself, keep running toward a personal goal and don’t be distracted by the guys on the sidelines. what i’m saying is don’t LOOK for a guy - that’ll just keep you from concentrating on what you need to be concentrating on… instead..you’ll see him running toward a common goal right next to you when you know it’s him”

i am tess. im a dreamer. i can be who i want. i can do anything my heart desires. i can live a meaningful life. i can have fun. i am worth something. i can be happy. i can dance. i can smile. i can laugh! :) happy tuesday all, and do something for yourselves! dance to the music, eat a huge bowl of ice cream, dress up and hit the town! we have one life girls, so live it!

july eighteenth.

a more visual representation. ;)

when you wish...

i'm in a very princessy mood today.may have to pull out a disney princess movie tonight... sweet dreams and happy wishes!

and there is comfort in the sound.

some more journal pages! haha, many of these were actually done in the back of my 6th period history class. i think mr. moore just kinda accepted me as the artsy girl, and blinded his eyes to my extreme version of "doodling". i really was paying attention though. i promise ; )

Forty-five degrees.

it is a chilly willy day here, but it is going so much better than my yesterday. i checked out five lovely books from the library, and just enjoyed some killer hot chocolate. :) now that ive updated all my bloggies, im gonna make some tea, curl up under my blanket, and get started on my first book!

{happy tuesday lovelies}

untitled one.

i woke up this morning super happy. but.... now, that happieness is gone, and im feeling really lonely. or, maybe not lonely, just left out. the world keeps spinning without tess in it. and i feel like im missing out. i also miss my normal. and i miss annemarie. and i miss hanging out with my friends, and staying up late...

nineteen days. yes im counting. {ugh a bug just got stuck under my right arrow key, and i totally just killed it and it wont come out.} and my life will continue as normal, and i will happily enjoy the rest of my summer.

solitary jitters.

so, im in montana with the family for the rest of the month, and although im glad to be away, and glad to be here, im finding it hard to be a social butterfly. instead, i keep dazing off into my own world, having my own little conversation, or pondering things in my head. none of these things are bad necessarily, and ive been very inspired. i really just want to get creative, but all i have with me is my watercolors. i want to paint. i want to sew. i want to make something big! so... we shall have to get on that.

i also want to go to the library. montana is my reading time for the year, and i already have my list written up. maybe i can go there tomorrow! :)

on another note, the coffee cups here are much too small. i may have to buy myself a big one.

use your imagination for once.

death cab speaks better than i.

A Movie Script Ending by Death Cab For Cutie from Richard Le on Vimeo.

love is watching someone die.

Death Cab for Cutie - What Sarah Said from tann on Vimeo.

il maime--he loves me
un peu--a little
beaucoup!--so much!
passionement--passionatlely
a la folie--to insanity
il maime pas du tout- he loves me not

im ready to run for the summer sky....

. summer summer summer summer.

it's a new trend!

dont even worry about it.

the atlantic was born today, and i'll tell you how.

the clouds above opened up and let it out.

i don't know who i can trust anymore. honestly.....does anyone tell the truth anymore?

lessons from gatsby.

you can't have a happy ending to a story based on lies.

this is my sundown.

I need you to show me the way from crazy.
I wanna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
Good goodbye lovely time.
Good goodbye tin sunshine.
Good goodbye I'll be fine.
Good goodbye, good goodnight.

....................

all the time.

this hopeful fantasy.

i honestly believe, and almost have accepted the fact that my lover is not in richmond. i dont even think he is in virginia. i mean, i may be wrong. but... i just have this fantasy that he is somewhere far away from me, and that someday, he will leave his hometown, and i will leave mine, and somehow, somewhere, in some huge city, the forces of love will pull us together. and once we find each other, noone will ever be able to tear us apart.

but maybe im only dreaming...

and it's your presense that i miss...

youre beautiful.youre wonderful.youre glorious.you are.

so marvelous.so majestic.so powerful.you are.

you blow me away

you blow me away

you blow me away

you blow me away